Top Ten Albums of the Year.
Maybe it started as bad as possible, with reminders and reactions. Or maybe it started better than I could have imagined. Certainly it continued down that road for some time, and if or when anything changed—every second a new form resolves in the fog as happens in moments of reflection and as happens in the brightest whirlwind of exploration. Marching feet in the fading light or the sound of an empty glass settling in an empty bar, or the feet shuffling around a lonely figure stopped at the center of a museum, and that rhythm of a train when at the moment you pass people feet away who may be the same and you can never know because the city somehow keeps time with each person, each place, each tempo, each experience as they fade in and out and somehow all these dimensions don’t crash into each other. This is life—each small passion spinning out of control from one moment to the next. It gets louder, quieter, faster, and more erratic and suddenly the focusing and building and matching momentum of these little pieces works together brilliantly. So it went—weeks spent walking through a foreign city, brief affairs of the heart, losses, threads of information clutched at and followed through time and space, bright bursts of empathy, quiet ignorance, probing strangers, caressing old friends, chances taken, walls thrown up and crushing feelings all come together whether for a minute or a week or just a couple of steps as the sun sets as if through a wide-angle lens, the miniature details of city and sky feeling fake as the shapes and colors and feelings pour out over my skin.
I’m tired of this and don't have any answers. And life's always changing. What have I been doing? What lessons have been learned? Am I happy? Am I successful? I don’t fucking know, so I’m gonna go hang out with my friends. See you all out there, if not tonight then next year. Love.
New Year's Eve, Greenpoint #1.

New Year's Eve, Greenpoint #2.




























